Army Post Road

Like I established in the earlier post: I'm moving into an apartment in Iowa City tomorrow. After nearly seven months and through sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much, I'll finally back in a place of my own in Iowa City. This is a huge relief. I think I've carried on and on many times before about the significance so I'll spare it.

Now I'd like to see what kind of difference it's going to make to everyone else that I'm back. I know some people are going to be excited and happy, I just wish everyone was. It will probably take me a long time to figure out everything that's gone wrong and why everything happened the way it did. I wish I could just sit down and lay everything out, because there is really large amount of things I've kept to myself that I don't want to. I just hate being kept at arms length from someone that still occupies so much of my mind. It makes me uncomfortable to admit that she occupies as much of my thoughts as she does but it isn't something I've concealed very well, if at all. I don't think it makes a difference what I say about all this though because I don't think she has a concern about it big enough, if at all, to get her outside her comfort zone to talk about it at all. I also think to her it's a settled issue and not a discussion that has any practical result possible.

And maybe this will all go away as I get fully back into a social life in Iowa City. We shall see.